My official weigh-in days are Wednesdays. I have wonderful support on this journey from a couple friends, one who happens to be my cousin. They live in a different state as me but we keep in touch and encourage eachother via email. We all give our weigh-in results on Wednesdays. This week I was down 2 lbs. to 194.5 -- Yea!! It felt so good. Just that little bit can be so encouraging and I think what did it for me was cutting out the eating after 8 p.m. That was a hard one for me because I love to have that snack right before bed. It was usually a bowl of cereal. This week I settled for a small glass of milk. I'm proud of myself for that one, it's not easy still.
Today is a pretty rough day for eating. I'm paying attention to my feelings and mood when I want to eat and I'm finding that my biggest struggle is when I'm tired. Today I am exhausted and find myself constantly wanting to put food in my mouth. I need to figure this one out... and I will.
Thank you and Love to R and E, my friends in IN for keeping spirits up and keep on pushing. Also thanks and love to S and L from weightlosswars.com for always sending words of encouragement. All of you ladies ROCK!!! XOXOXO
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Jack of All Diets, Master of None
Woke up again this morning with terrible aching feet as soon as I stood up out of bed. I HAVE to do SOMETHING! Gosh, what's it going to take to kick my butt into gear?! I was thinking of all thing different diets, fads, programs, etc. that tried. Tried isn't even the right word. Many things were purchased and never even attempted. Guess you could call those "The Money Burning Weight Loss Programs".
Let's see, over the past 10 years there's been diet pills (prescription and otc, Alli, Hydroxycut, etc.), Michael Thurman's 6-week Body Makeover, Weight Watchers, The Biggest Loser online, Dr. Phil's Ultimate Weight Solution, You On A Diet, and my own version of what I think is the right thing to do. Each of these have their good points and bad points. The Rx pills worked as great appetite control but made me crazy jittery and that freaked me out. I bought the OTC pills and never took a one, wish I had that money back. The 6-Week Body Makeover seems like a great idea and 6 weeks doesn't seem that long but it's pretty strict especially if you're a carb junkie like me... 6 weeks is forever then if you're not ready to change your habits, what's the point?
Ultimately what needs to happen when using any of these programs is you actually have to DO what they say. Much to my dismay, just buying the book, program or CD doesn't peel the weight off, go figure. Now the BUT... but I'm someone who needs some kind of guidelines. I wish I were strong enough to just do it on my own and I hope that will happen one day but until that time comes, until I have some significant success, I need a plan, a list of do's and don'ts. So I'm going back to the one plan that has been most successful for me. Weight Watchers.
Luckily I have all my materials left from my last stint of WW at work. At least this program gives you the flexibility to have your favorites, it's just a matter of choice. Now, I just need to stick to it. I have a history of starting a plan and falling hard off the wagon. I just want to be successful. I want to be proud of myself. I want my family to be proud of me. I want to be passionate about it. Until next time... healthy choices, healthy choices, healthy choices. And lots and lots of water!!
Let's see, over the past 10 years there's been diet pills (prescription and otc, Alli, Hydroxycut, etc.), Michael Thurman's 6-week Body Makeover, Weight Watchers, The Biggest Loser online, Dr. Phil's Ultimate Weight Solution, You On A Diet, and my own version of what I think is the right thing to do. Each of these have their good points and bad points. The Rx pills worked as great appetite control but made me crazy jittery and that freaked me out. I bought the OTC pills and never took a one, wish I had that money back. The 6-Week Body Makeover seems like a great idea and 6 weeks doesn't seem that long but it's pretty strict especially if you're a carb junkie like me... 6 weeks is forever then if you're not ready to change your habits, what's the point?
Ultimately what needs to happen when using any of these programs is you actually have to DO what they say. Much to my dismay, just buying the book, program or CD doesn't peel the weight off, go figure. Now the BUT... but I'm someone who needs some kind of guidelines. I wish I were strong enough to just do it on my own and I hope that will happen one day but until that time comes, until I have some significant success, I need a plan, a list of do's and don'ts. So I'm going back to the one plan that has been most successful for me. Weight Watchers.
Luckily I have all my materials left from my last stint of WW at work. At least this program gives you the flexibility to have your favorites, it's just a matter of choice. Now, I just need to stick to it. I have a history of starting a plan and falling hard off the wagon. I just want to be successful. I want to be proud of myself. I want my family to be proud of me. I want to be passionate about it. Until next time... healthy choices, healthy choices, healthy choices. And lots and lots of water!!
Sunday, February 8, 2009
My Aching Feet & Those Damn Cookies!
I woke up this morning like every morning, not wanting to get out of bed. Not because I was still tired. I'm a mother of 3 young boys, I'm always tired. I didn't want to get out of bed because I know what awaits me. Pains shooting through my feet as soon as they hit the floor and I put the weight of my body on them. I ask myself "When did my body go to pot?" I mean, I've hovered around this weight (up and down 10 lbs or so) for the last 5 years and don't remember aches and pains like this. Dare I say it ... When did I become old? Is 36 the majic number for me?
HELL NO! I'm fighting this one all the way!!
And as for those damn cookies... A popular grocery store around here makes these oatmeal chocolate chip cookies that I LOVE!! Just like a junkie needs to stay away from drugs and the areas where the dealers sell them, I really need to keep my butt out of this store. Like yesterday, I went there for lots of other things but you know I didn't leave without a container of those cookies from the bakery. Eventhough it was a small container and not the jumbo size, I need to steer clear of the entire area. This one for me is definitely "you can't eat just one". No portion control here... sign must say STRICTLY PROHIBITED!
HELL NO! I'm fighting this one all the way!!
And as for those damn cookies... A popular grocery store around here makes these oatmeal chocolate chip cookies that I LOVE!! Just like a junkie needs to stay away from drugs and the areas where the dealers sell them, I really need to keep my butt out of this store. Like yesterday, I went there for lots of other things but you know I didn't leave without a container of those cookies from the bakery. Eventhough it was a small container and not the jumbo size, I need to steer clear of the entire area. This one for me is definitely "you can't eat just one". No portion control here... sign must say STRICTLY PROHIBITED!
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Put a Cork In It!
Of course if you don't have a cork, a brownie (or two or three) does quite nicely. I'm not to the point of evaluating my past, finding long lost reasons why I'm overweight, etc. etc. but I can tell you that I'm an emotional eater. Happy, Sad, Depressed, Bored, Angry, you name the emotion, I'll eat because of it.
Case in point. Last night I was very upset with my husband for reasons I won't go into but lets just say it was justified. My hard and fast reaction was to go shove my mouth with something chocolately, fattening and yummy. And I did. I don't like to yell and argue around the kids so if I can't get my frustration out, I need something to hold it all in. A Duncan Hines Milk Chocolate Brownie with extra chocolate syrup mixed in and finished off with powdered sugar was my cork. And I'm not talking a 1/2 inch square serving, I'm talking a REAL serving size brownie, like most people eat. I could have eaten half the freakin pan, but I didn't. Therein lies my success I suppose.
I almost posted to my "therapy blog" last night but I was afraid of what I'd type in the heat of the moment. Good thing I'm not a grudge holder. Don't worry, I'm not done having a "discussion" with my husband but the feeling of needed to cork my emotions has subsided today. Thank you Lord!
Case in point. Last night I was very upset with my husband for reasons I won't go into but lets just say it was justified. My hard and fast reaction was to go shove my mouth with something chocolately, fattening and yummy. And I did. I don't like to yell and argue around the kids so if I can't get my frustration out, I need something to hold it all in. A Duncan Hines Milk Chocolate Brownie with extra chocolate syrup mixed in and finished off with powdered sugar was my cork. And I'm not talking a 1/2 inch square serving, I'm talking a REAL serving size brownie, like most people eat. I could have eaten half the freakin pan, but I didn't. Therein lies my success I suppose.
I almost posted to my "therapy blog" last night but I was afraid of what I'd type in the heat of the moment. Good thing I'm not a grudge holder. Don't worry, I'm not done having a "discussion" with my husband but the feeling of needed to cork my emotions has subsided today. Thank you Lord!
Friday, February 6, 2009
Getting Started
Well, here we are, my first blog post. Where do I being? I thought of creating a blog as a form of "journaling" my seemingly forever and constant battle with my weight. Would putting my story on the internet, possibly with pictures even (I took the pictures, now I need to be brave enough to post them) be just the kick in the ass I need to get myself on the path to optimum health?
Right now I'd be happy with 5 lbs. nevermind "optimum health". .... augh, I'm trying not to think about typing my "stats" but I decided I was going to be brutally honest on this blog. Holding back on the first post is not the way to brutally honest so here goes. I am 36 years old, Mom of 3 gorgeous little boys and wife to a wonderful man who seems to love and desire me no matter what my weight. I don't understand that one but God Bless him for it. And weight, oh yea. I'm 5'3" and as of this morning, the scale in my bathroom was reading 196.5 lbs. (I'll have a whole post on my relationship with that scale very soon).
There it is. The basics. There is so much more to tell and I look forward to getting out of my system and onto this blog, but in the meantime, the baby is crying and it's Mommy to the rescue!
Right now I'd be happy with 5 lbs. nevermind "optimum health". .... augh, I'm trying not to think about typing my "stats" but I decided I was going to be brutally honest on this blog. Holding back on the first post is not the way to brutally honest so here goes. I am 36 years old, Mom of 3 gorgeous little boys and wife to a wonderful man who seems to love and desire me no matter what my weight. I don't understand that one but God Bless him for it. And weight, oh yea. I'm 5'3" and as of this morning, the scale in my bathroom was reading 196.5 lbs. (I'll have a whole post on my relationship with that scale very soon).
There it is. The basics. There is so much more to tell and I look forward to getting out of my system and onto this blog, but in the meantime, the baby is crying and it's Mommy to the rescue!
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